It sucks when you like someone so much but they don’t feel the same. Like it’s not even like they told you that they don’t feel the same but you can feel it. It’s the worst feeling.
I have clinic depression and anxiety so when this happens to me I go completely crazy and I get more depressed. I feel like no one wants me. The thing is they guy I’m talking to right now is always busy so maybe I’m just being weird. Right? Just overthinking? I hope I’m just over thinking. We have been talking for a few years and I think I have a right to have a big crush on him. We flirt all the time, or well at least when he’s not busy.
We were both recently in serious relationships as well, so maybe that’s why? He’s still caught up with his ex? I’m still a little caught up with mine so maybe that’s it? The stress that this gives me is insane. I should just stop talking to him maybe? But I don’t think I can. I care about him way too much. I know things about him. When I’m not distracted by something else he’s in my head. I’m going crazy. He’s everything I wish I could be.
He doesn’t know me. I feel like I know him but I don’t. I want to. Does he want to know me?
If he did he would try to know me. But he’s busy. It’s because he’s busy, right? I want to know him. Everything about him. I want to know what he does when no one’s around. Does he want to know what I do when no one’s around?
I found out the answer last night and it's a no. He likes me but we live too far apart and it wouldn't work. I know this. I'm still sad. He's just busy. I freak out and ruined what we were doing. We are just friends now.
