Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. That is true. Some people are just better looking than others
and more people find them attractive. Being a girl and having guy friends,
you hear them talk about other girls that you know and they say that they are really cute or beautiful or sexy. Its kinda like a big fuck you to the girl you're talking to. Yes, I see that she pretty.
I know she's prettier than me.

I have self-esteem issues and when I hear that sort of thing I feel bad about my looks.
I recently was in a relationship that made me question my beauty more than ever before.
He never wanted to have sex with me and we didn't kiss often and that made me feel ugly and unwanted.

I’m a shallow person sometimes and I know for sure I am about looks and that makes me feel worse about myself in some way because I know pretty people and they aren't pretty all the time.

So for someone like me who isn’t society's version of pretty, or sexy. How often do people look at a and think that's not a

very attractive face when I'm just reading or concentrating or doing anything.

Like they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder, even if isn't verbal people will still think your pretty, cute, and sexy. Maybe not who you want to at the time.
That just means that they aren't the right person for you.

If no one has told you this today. YOU are pretty, YOU are cute, and YOU are sexy.

"What are you afraid of?"

"What are you afraid of?" What am I afraid of? Everything. Everyone. There isn't one thing that I am afraid of its many things. Things that make too much sense and things that make none at all. I can't walk down the street without being terrified. A small thing could happen, then suddenly I'm trying to hold back tears. Like someone could drive by too fast, or too slow. I could see someone walking towards me, or hear someone walking behind me. Why does that terrify me? I don't know why. It's just always there.

I count when I walk. I then get distracted and I lose count and it bothers me so much I feel like I'm going insane, but I keep walking with this horrible feeling that I can't explain. I get this feeling when I can't concentrate as well, which is all the time. I have A.D.D (Attention Defect Disorder). I can never concentrate. I was doing a test at school and I was in this small room doing my math final. I can't sit still, and I hate being alone in a small room trying to concentrate on one thing when I can't concentrate in general.

Fear is always there. Push through it and I promise everything will be fine. Sometimes fear hurts. Sometimes fear isn't as bad as it seems. If you live your life in fear it will rule over you like a dark cloud. Fear isn't a bad thing. It stops us from doing things we shouldn't.  It can also stop us from things we should do. Find out what the things you should fear are and face all your other fears.